PHILLIP and NATHALYN
"One of God's Gift to Me"
(~Big Little Brother~), 18, and a college freshman at Rutgers University has always been the friend I considered as "God's present". I met him sophomore year Chemistry class, sitting right in front of me. I did not talk to him until Qwana Grant began to. From that time on, I couldn't help but feel a special closeness with Phil. He is a marvelous guy with so many special qualities given to him by the Lord. I was drawn to him in a way that I never could explain. My friendship with Phil is extraordinary. He is my bestfriend and my brother all at the same time. I guess you can say that the quote "a guy and a girl could never be just friends" is false, for between Phil and I, there IS love. But this love is far different from romantic love. This is love between a brother and a sister. I often told Phil things I was never able to tell other people. And each time I confided in him, he would comfort me with reassuring words: God's words, and I knew that I would be okay. Through Phil, God allowed me to know that I was loved and that my life was precious.
Junior year, though we had none of the same classes or the same friends for that matter (since Phil hung around with the "cool" group), we still talked and at the same time, I still shared with him many of my secrets. I knew that even though I don't see him quite as often, the closeness we shared would never go away. And I was right…
Come senior year, we shared English, Biology, and Gym together. Not only that, we shared also the same classes though different periods. Therefore, I spoke with Phil frequently not only on school grounds but also outside of school, with him being the president of the National Honor Society. I often volunteered to help out with the organization and join the activities held by NHS because of Phil and not because of my own personal interest. I knew that somewhere down the road, Phil would need my support in every way. When time came for Phil to hand down his presidency to another president at the end of the year, I was able to feel his pain. Furthermore, I was able to notice his sadness when everyone was preparing for the prom and he could not go. Thus, it was this time of year that I decided to make my bestfriend happy. Though things didn't go perfectly well, the "prom" that I set up with 2 of my other friends made me feel as if I was able to do something for a brother who has always been there for me.
Our friendship fully developed over the summer. His project for NHS required help and I was the first person he had come to asking for a favor. I was never good at rejecting the people I love. For a month or so, Phil and I worked on the grueling project. It was the hardest task anyone was able to do but we did it. Hundreds if not thousands of pages of NHS activities were organized into one big binder. When the project was over, I couldn't help but feel some sadness. Nevertheless, throughout the whole time, Phil and I had our talks and our laughs from the afternoon to 2:00 A.M. I began to learn more about him during that time as he learned more about me. I saw his "wild" and sometimes "childish" side that I know not many had seen. I felt privileged knowing Phil trusted me with all his heart. Perhaps the one thing I can remember the most is when one night (or was it morning?), he jumped up, gave me the biggest hug, and told me he loved me. I was touched by those 3 words because I truly felt his sincerity.
Though I am far away from Phil, his words and presence still helps me to handle life's daily struggles. I would never be able to erase from my memory my one special big little brother because he already has a part of me that I know he will never ever let go. A platonic but true friendship filled with so much love and inspiration….
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